Book Review: “Untamed” by Glennon Doyle

There’s no other way to begin this review than to start out by saying that this book has changed my life. Not in the Oh! I’m so motivated type of way. But instead in the way that has stirred my soul and gently rocked my bones. It has changed my life because I have soaked […]

Olive

When I saw Olive, I broke the only two universally known rules when interacting with a stray cat. Don’t give them food. Don’t give them a name. She was irresistible from the moment she showed up on my porch. I was completely smitten by her tiny black body and striking green eyes. At first, I […]

Table for One

On Saturday night, I took myself out to dinner. Earlier I had went on a hike with some new people I had just met from the rugby team. I had exhausted my socialization meter for the day, but I was starving and didn’t feel like cooking. So I walked myself over to the smoked chicken […]

Taking on a New City

Graduating college is a fun, yet uncertain time. It’s the end of an era, the closing of a chapter, a time to make big steps. Graduating during college and entering the workforce during a pandemic is a whole different beast entirely. After graduating in May, a family member offered me a job working for their […]

My Lack of Emotional Intelligence

I recently started reading “Emotional Intelligence 2.0” by Travis Bradberry and Jean Greaves. I was browsing Barnes & Noble when the book caught my eye. I have never been good at articulating my feelings and it’s caused issues and problems for me in the past. The book starts out by explaining what emotional intelligence is […]

Trouble Letting Go

Growing up means growing apart from people we thought would be in our lives forever. But what does forever even mean? Some magical stretch of time that we’re always trying to put our finger on.

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Realizing it’s time to walk away from a person you desperately love is so painful. It feels like your stomach might rip in half. You try to fight that feeling for weeks, maybe even months, telling yourself that things will get better or that there’s still hope for that person to be a part of your future. But once you truly realize you must part ways with someone there is no undoing that feeling. There is no running away from the knot that has lodged itself in your stomach.

Sometimes it feels like doing the breaking up with is a lot more difficult than getting broken up with. When I decided to end a relationship, I cried the whole the time, profusely apoligizing while attempting to articulate why I thought this was for the best. The other person was obviously upset, but was bare of tears. Maybe the act of potentially inflicting pain upon someone is worse than the actual pain inflicted.

At the end of the day, we must do what is best for ourselves though and sometimes that means completely changing courses. It’s terrifiying and painful, but isn’t growth always uncomfortable? Aren’t tranistion periods always the hardest right before we jump into them?

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There’s a song by the Avett Brothers that I’ve been playing on repeat for the last little bit called “Trouble Letting Go”

“It feels so good I’ll have trouble letting go
The magic is there for us all to feel
Naming it isn’t what makes it real
Rushing around for us all to know
Noticing isn’t what makes it so
I cry when I have it, I cry when I don’t
And everyone walks away
Still I ask if I can stay
The magic is there for us all to feel
Naming it isn’t what makes it real
Rushing around for us all to know
Noticing isn’t what makes it so
I cry when I have it, I cry when I don’t
And everyone walks away
Yeah everyone walks away”
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Be brave in your season of growth friends. Enjoy things when they come and let go of them with grace when it is time for them to pass. We’re only here for a spilt second, in the grand scheme of things, so let’s make the most of our time.

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So, What’s Next?

So, I graduated college last week. Technically. I didn’t get to have my ceremony because of COVID-19. But, I did it, I finished my Bachelor’s degree. I’m really proud of myself and excited to close this chapter of my life and see what the next chapter holds. Excited and honestly quite terrified. Entering the job […]

Quarantine Crafts

I’ve been trying really hard to stay busy during this period of madness. I’ve recently started watching Ozark on Netflix and it is very entertaining. There are three seasons, each with ten episodes, so I suspect it will keep me busy for quite some time. I also binged Tiger King. Everyone has been talking about it, so I figured […]

Pandemic Anxiety

We’re living through extremely insane times. Everything seems to come back around to COVID-19. News articles online. My Twitter feed. What my friends share on Facebook. Most conversations seem to come back around to the pandemic. I’ve been feeling extremely anxious about everything. I wake up in the middle of the night, anxiety pooling in […]